Public Embaressment

I went to the commissary yesterday to grab a gallon of milk since we had almost run out. Guess what I did? Just take a wild guess.. Yep I FELL. Again!
For anybody who doesn't know I fall down often. The last time I fell was in October of 2010. I folded my ankle on my neighbor's driveway and had to be taken to the ER in an ambulance. Burly firemen were called in to help me onto a stretcher. I had on pajama pants. All the while one of my more we'll say wise cracking neighbors was snapping photos of this all going down. So needless to say I am no stranger to embarrassment. But it had been a awhile since it had come knocking on my door. In the physical form anyway. I say all kinds of retarded things every single day and embarrass the daylights out of myself that way too.
So I grab my gallon of 2% and head about 5 steps towards the registers when I step in MILK that somebody else had spilt. My foot slid under me to the right and I sat down hard on my butt. Dragging down my 4 yr. old who was faithfully holding my hand the whole time. The best (?) part is that I smack the gallon of milk on the ground when I hit it and it explodes everywhere!! No wait actually the best (again ?) part is that this chick sees me bust my butt and she saunters on by without checking on me. And then she turned around for like a second like "Ouch" and speeds away!! LOL I wanna yell at her "Your so mean!" Or something like that.. well actually I wanted to flip her off but I didn't. Honestly I didn't.
I was fine and after a manager was assured of my safety I was free to grab another milk and get out of there with my sore bum and milk. Typical me.

Cleaning Day

I cleaned my house today from top to bottom. And that's a pretty big deal if you know who I am. I clean if I feel like and if the mood strikes me. But lately I have been trying to develop a discipline of cleaning even if I don't want to. Mature huh!? Ya really mature since I need a pat on the back.. :) We went to church this morning since today is Sunday and the Lord only asks for one morning a week. It was a rocking sermon! I loved it and I love that church. I hope I can put Pastor Paul's words into action this week. He spoke about being a good neighbor and what that really means. I have decided to follow Jesus! No turning back! No turning back! Praise God for that!
Anyways when we got home I started right away and cleaned up Gage's nasty bedroom. It only took 15 minutes so after a short break to get my mind set up I tackled Zoe's bedroom. Her room took about 25 minutes because she had crushed crackers everywhere.. don't ask me why. After I had finished the kids rooms I went downstairs and cleaned down there a bit.. not much since I have been doing that everyday for awhile so it doesn't get freakishly gross down there. Trust me it has before. I proceeded to come back upstairs and clean my whole bedroom.. which is heavy duty cleaning. And I hung up the lovely curtains I had purchased a while ago. They are so pretty and I am so glad I finally hung them.
Can you tell I am extremely proud of myself? If you cant tell.. I am! I honestly don't like cleaning and I don't mind ignoring a mess. But as I am getting older (26 in June ugh!) I find that I cant simply ignore anything. I don't know why.. I blame my mother. But I like this part of growing up. I like the house clean and I kinda like doing it. Except for the out of breath part but hopefully that will change. And I am hoping God sends a flow of energy like He did today again tomorrow so that I can get the laundry done and maybe even the closet cleaned out! We can hope!

busy..? and rambling nonsense.

Yep! Busy! My husband and I often argue over my job. Yep he does go there... for some of you ( I dont know who I think I am talking to) anyway for some other wives this subject is not broached. But my husband honestly thinks I do nothing all day long. Now this morning! I am doing a little bit of nothing. But thats only becuase I did so much the last few days. And I dont get to do nothing all day long.. their are dishes waiting in the sink for me. So patiently too!
Anyway I just wanted to list/share what I did that made me so busy and earned me this easy morning. Which I will pay for later today when I am running around like crazy.
So 2 days ago was Tuesday the 1st of March. It was the day after payday.. a busy time anyway. I got up and got Gage to school. Feeding both kids and getting them dressed, teeth brushed, hair fixed and shoes on. Thats normal.. happens 5x a week. Np. So Zoe and I had errands to do so we set ot right away and grabbed subway breakfast sandwhiches which I have been wanting to try forever.. dont bother yuck. So we went to the Verizon store over on the other side of town cause thats the best store and I had serious bussiness that I didnt want messed up by our retarded store over by us. SO we fight traffic for 20 minutes and get in there. Wait 10 minutes. I want to set up service agian. I forgot my POA. Very important bit of paper that I need for this transaction. SO Zoe and I drive 20 minutes home and grab it along with toys and snacks and juice. So I go back to the Verizon store. I buy myself a shiny new phone and set up new service. It takes about 2 hours to do this. Not to mention the hour spent remebering and retrieving the POA. And chasing my little sweetie around the store... SO we get some lunch and then head to the commisary. Thats our much cheaper Army Kroger for anybody who doesnt know. I know if I wait to the store for another moment they will be totally out of food.. which is true. We wont get any yogurt, chicken, milk, bread.. the run out of everything if you wait till a day or more after payday. We got there in time though and grabbed about 80 bucks worth of food in an hour and run home with it all. It was early day so I dashed over and grabbed Gage and the girls. We came home and i made some phone calls for about 2 hours. We didnt eat our mac n cheese dinner till I thought about making something at 7pm... not a good night.
SO the next day I had to go back to the Verizon store cause my new phone updated at 9pm the night before and it deleted all of my contacts. GRRR! I asked the chick at the counter to just add them agian handing her both old and new phone. She fiddles with new phone and says uh you just had to refresh your Gmail account... I left feeling like a moron.. but I got to turn around and come right back when I realized that hadnt done it!! Thanks a bunch counter chick! But they did fix it thankfully and were very nice. While on that side of town I bought some more make up since I ran out yesterday and I dont want to go around scaring people. Then I met up with a gal who wanted to buy our old glider rocker.. 30 bucks! yay! We went to reading day and I go to read to Gage's classroom.. very fun! I made a few ore phone calls to various peoples.. not quick calls of course. I get to make more calls today. Gage lost his school folder somewhere in the house and I just cant find it.... hmmm lets see what else has been going on..? OH yes I have to pick a dentist for us like today and get us seen very soon since we finally got our dental insurance cards in the mail. Annnd I would love to go see a movie with my friend sometime.. not going happen though. I need to go to the bank. Just listing whats in my brain.. I am very busy! My husband is a sweetie but our brains work differntly and I wish he knew this. I hope he knows that I really am busy. That I also have to sweep the floors soon and that something stinks and i get to find it somewhere in my house.. plus that sometime during all tht I have done in the lats 2 days I also cleaned out our frigde and sold our old fridge.. the list goes on. I love you hun.

got some topomax!

Weird title I know.. But I went to the doc on Friday which was a miracle in itself! For anybody who has ever dealt with BACH (Blanchfield Army Community Hospital) (who once tried to book me for a yeast infection apointment 3 weeks out!) you know what I am talking about. I called on Thursday afternoon and asked to be seen soon about my month long migraine battle and WHAT! I was seen on Friday!? That next day!! Holy Batman!!
Anyway so I went and got the drug Topomax which I have been on before.  I have migraines sometimes everyday for weeks. I get the kind with light and sound sensitivity and a headache. My mom gets occular ones... ugh poor momma! But I am back on the pills and hopefully they will slow down now. I have had one for 3 weeks everyday at 3pm I have to take Excedrin Migraine (which is fab stuff). And I dont want to be on daily Tylenol! so I went on Topomax instead. Will keep ya'll updated. Today no migraine.. very nice!
Just re read this and its not all that well written.. I am tired and grouchy and I hope I start soon. Sorry if thats too much info!

My boy a few years ago.. sweetness!

My Little Man

I would just like to report that my son started my coffee this morning. I make my coffee before we all go to bed at night. And every morning my sons job is to go downstairs and push the on button on the coffee machine. He loves to push it and I love having hot coffee with no waiting. Most days he pushes it when we come down the stairs together. I start making breakfast and he pushes the button. But today he woke up at about 7am and blearily sat up (he slept in my bed since he was scared he said) and went sleepily downstairs. I was awake but not moving yet and said "hey buddy what are you doing?" He said "starting your coffee."
This to me was exceptionaly cute and thoughtful. I dont know for sure if its his training (go me!) or his sweet spirit. Because when he is not crashing Hot Wheels and fighting with is little sister he is sugary sweet. I <3 my little man.

Big Decision

 I am going to have Gastric Bypass surgery. I am turning in my paperwork by the end of Feburary. I hae weighed over 250 for about a year and it stinks. I have been overweight since I was 13 and I eat out of boredom and sometimes emotionally. This surgery is going to break my food addiction and help/force me to lose alot of weight. How much I dont know. Its exciting to think about all my new possibilities though. I will get a big fresh start. I can imagine running up the stairs and not getting dizzy. Running around playing soccer with my son! Not sitting down to cook dinner cause me feet hurt so bad. These are all very happy thoughts for me. I am so ready.


I would like to share this journey with you. I know there will be ups and downs and I think it will be very good for me to write all of this thing down. It will be good for me and maybe good for you. Maybe your thinking of doing it too. I want to be as prepared as possible and I bet you would too.

Thanks for reading!

Oh and thanks Tami for thinking I should do this!

moved

we moved to a new house. i like the house alot. its prettier than the last house on post. i miss being able to call maintenence though. plus the old house had a grinder in the sink. this one doesnt which i think is barbaric to even sell a home sans grinder. but the new house has lots of natural light, hardwood floors, carpet, screened in back porch! pretty good really. I have barely unpacked anything.. I really hate cleaning and organizing. i dont mind cleaning its just i dont have much get up and go. i prefer reading or being on facebook. haha. thats really lazy. oh well. thats me. as you will have read in my first blog which was very sad my husband was deployed.. he is home now. Thanks be to God for bringing him home safely! God is so good to bring him home safe. So many dont come home. Our kids Gage and Zoe are 4 and 2 1/2 now. Gage goes back for another year of pre-k starting tommorow. and then its just me and Zoe. Unless I can find a nice mom that works with a nice baby i can keep during the days to help me meet our expenses. Wish me luck with that one! I know there are nice moms out there with great kids who want somebody who is responsible and nice for there little guys or gals to hang with all day! I just havent found them since I began looking yesterday.. haha. And no nothing did get solved with my husband coming home. But I did see my doc and she decided to give me celexa for my anxiety. Its helping everyday. My marriage as with everyones marriage will always be work. thats life.

a bad day.. waiting for 2009

My husband is deployed to Iraq. He has been gone for 11 months. It will be a year in November. Doesn't that make normal couples sad for us? I feel like nobody in the entire U.S gives a damn about miliary wives. What we go through in our marrieges is unthinkable in normal relationships. Anyway I have two kids with my my husband. My son Gage is 3 1/2 years old and my daughter Zoe is 2 years old. They really got into alot of trouble today. They pulled my curtains off the wall. They painted my floor with nail polish. They got all of there pull ups out of the bin and spread them allover. They refused to eat anything I made this morning except for the oatmeal I made Zoe. She always eats it no matter what. It doesn't sound like that bad of a day really. Now that I am writing it out. Maybe I am forgetting something calamatous they did.. It did rain all day long. I abhor rain and cold. I positivley do see the need for both things and sometimes I think its great when it rains. But today I wish I could have taken the kids outside to play. But we were stuck with eachother. And I found out today that my voter registration that I worked so hard to get mailed in on time was actually a day late and therefore void. I am sad about that. This would have been my first time to vote although I am 23 years old. But I screwed up and I dont get to vote. I think I am depressed for so many reasons. I wish Chris would come home but then agian I dont think him coming home would make it all better. He isnt the kind of husband who takes care of things just because I am down. I dont say that to be mean because he is a great husband and I know he loves me alot. But I know my problems would pile up without me to do it. Its depressing when I think of it. I am normally a happy person but I get instant seasonal depression when the first cold day hits. I really should go to the doc for some pills to help me. But if you ever dealt with an Army hospital you will know why I am reluctant to even bother. Everything is tens times harder.
Well my next blog will be hopefully alot more cheerful. This one is pathetic. But it made me feel a bit better. I dont really have anyone to talk to so this was pretty helpful.