a bad day.. waiting for 2009

My husband is deployed to Iraq. He has been gone for 11 months. It will be a year in November. Doesn't that make normal couples sad for us? I feel like nobody in the entire U.S gives a damn about miliary wives. What we go through in our marrieges is unthinkable in normal relationships. Anyway I have two kids with my my husband. My son Gage is 3 1/2 years old and my daughter Zoe is 2 years old. They really got into alot of trouble today. They pulled my curtains off the wall. They painted my floor with nail polish. They got all of there pull ups out of the bin and spread them allover. They refused to eat anything I made this morning except for the oatmeal I made Zoe. She always eats it no matter what. It doesn't sound like that bad of a day really. Now that I am writing it out. Maybe I am forgetting something calamatous they did.. It did rain all day long. I abhor rain and cold. I positivley do see the need for both things and sometimes I think its great when it rains. But today I wish I could have taken the kids outside to play. But we were stuck with eachother. And I found out today that my voter registration that I worked so hard to get mailed in on time was actually a day late and therefore void. I am sad about that. This would have been my first time to vote although I am 23 years old. But I screwed up and I dont get to vote. I think I am depressed for so many reasons. I wish Chris would come home but then agian I dont think him coming home would make it all better. He isnt the kind of husband who takes care of things just because I am down. I dont say that to be mean because he is a great husband and I know he loves me alot. But I know my problems would pile up without me to do it. Its depressing when I think of it. I am normally a happy person but I get instant seasonal depression when the first cold day hits. I really should go to the doc for some pills to help me. But if you ever dealt with an Army hospital you will know why I am reluctant to even bother. Everything is tens times harder.
Well my next blog will be hopefully alot more cheerful. This one is pathetic. But it made me feel a bit better. I dont really have anyone to talk to so this was pretty helpful.